歸零

要歸零
要安靜
要沈默
要平心
要祥和

要專心
要毅力
要加油
要堅持
要勇敢

Selfie

Playing with the photo booth in my laptop :)

4 more months to go for my master course. Add oil Mazzy3 add oil !!

Cheers :)

一席話驚醒夢中人

Thanks Mazzy-1 :D It is like I still felt a bit lost and empty when I woke up this morning, but after reading messages and words from Mazzy-1, I suddenly feel relief 釋懷 and delight.

All the troubles all the worries we have now, probably is only a mini tiny issue. But often we keep thinking about it, enlarge it and eventually it engulf us.

For relationship, everyone know it will be a long long process. Along this long long process, hundred or thousand of problems will inevitably appear. If at this moment, you have some doubtful feeling, you are troubled, you are worried and he/she is not willing to response or face the issue with you, then you couldn't really expect him/her to face a even bigger issue in later of you and his/her life!

And I must say, I need to stop thinking about what is in other person mind. So bad, I would just keep finding excuse(s) for him and it was just plain stupid.

Ok, time to work hard on my study now. My another house mate told me he almost finish with his dissertation now and I haven't started it yet. Oh no.

Cheers! Wish everyone have a peaceful mind and heart. Trust faith, never stop loving people, do good deed and appreciates beautiful things in your life.

Spring in Manchester.
    

Hope

Last year mid December, my friend invited me to a hiking trip again. She told me, "This time, we are going to Hope." "What?" "The name of the hiking place is Hope." "O?!! 天下奇名無奇不有啊。" Well, I must say at least it is a very positive and motivated place name.

And yes, I did go with them and was really enjoyed the time away from the city again. We took a train from Manchester Piccadilly Station and about an hour journey, we reached this little small town (Hope) in british countryside. 

Some of the photos I took (showing down here) and again was very impressed with the beautiful mother nature. 

Even the tree are 光溜溜, the whole picture still looks really nice. 

I can't imagine when it is at the spring or summer time. 

In case anyone interested in this place, the full name is Hope Valley, Derbyshire. I google "Hope and UK" a moment ago and realized there are quite a few places also named Hope.

Towards the end of the hiking trip, I did something very silly. I nearly killed myself with an attractive but also very poisonous "fruit". I picked up a few blood red berry-kind fruits and put in the mouth. I was very lucky indeed because right after I had my first bite, my friend noticed it and immediately asked me to throw out or vomit if I can. Very lucky that I did not swallow it because afterwards, they told me, there is a very poisonous fruit that looks very similar to what I had. How stupid I am, this is kind of like common sense and general knowledge. First, I shouldn't have eaten any food that I have no knowledge at all in a jungle like place. Second, the fruits that especially appeared to be extremely attractive are often poisonous, natural selection, to attract their predator! Well, this incident has taught me a very good lesson and I think it will stay in my mind for a very long time. Looking at this way, probably it is a good thing, at least I am still alive now.

Cheers :)    

Foods and Recipe

I came across a pretty useful article title: "30 Foods You'll Never Have To Buy Again". The link is here: -> http://www.buzzfeed.com/rachelysanders/foods-to-diy-make-instead-of-buy

I really wish to make the home-made Nutella and Marshmallows if only I have got more time and enough kitchen equipment in my poor student kitchen. So my actual intention is to share with my other two wonderful mazzy, so that they can make some and share the real food back with me! And of course to anyone that like to home-make your own food, please share with us your experience and outcome (in words, but I wouldn't mind if you want to share your real food too).

Cheers :)

Studying

I go back to study again after 3 years of working. For 3 years, the jobs I had were mostly routine and needless for tough brain work. And 2 months ago, I chose this topic of COMPLEX diseases for my course project. Suddenly I am thinking, what have I done! Should have chosen the simpler project. My brain just wouldn't cooperate with me very well now.

Regardless I have love-hate issue with this book and topic, I will still smile.

Reason 1: I don't hv potential to act cute, nor hv a pretty face, so I hv to smile often to compensate its.

Reason 2: I must be friend with this topic, or else I can't graduate!

Ok, back to my journal/literature. Another sleepless night. Sigh.

Saturday

Last saturday I went to Disley, not disney, Disley is a british countryside. I liked it, in fact I always dream to go countryside whenever I feel I am too fully loaded with everything from city/urban life. It is such a bless that can just wonder around the big green field, breath the fresh air and feel the breeze through your hair. I went there with different nationality of people. We exchanged our thought, talked about everything. It was really good.

That evening on the same day, I had dinner with my housemates. I didn't know beforehand what kind of dinner we should have, I only know we will eat at home. So I thought may be we should all cook a dishes and have some kind of pot luck. I made green curry with rice. Haha, to the people that know me, sure you will think what, green curry again! Yea, unfortunately when I tried to think of some signature dishes from my country, I don't know any to cook to perfection, and I don't know any that can cook in a simplest way without messing up. We talked and laughed a lot during that dinner. It was really nice. And when the day, saturday was going to end, I thought to myself, the world is really big, if you didn't travel around and meet with new people, you will live with a narrow perspective only. So do take your chance to go outside, meet with people and talk with them. 

To be continued. Cheers.      

Move on

I really wish to talk about some happy things so that this blog will not be so gloomy, but I just can't help myself. There are lot of positive conversations going on in my brain, asking myself, is ok, you are fine, is just a small mistake, such a small mistake, don't carry with you until you make the next one bad as well. 

Tomorrow is Friday already, yea...................................................h

Not really feeling excited for Friday approaching. I have more work to do and my brain just stop functioning already. I want to join trips with international society. I want to eat some good food. I want to just wonder around in the city.

Get up and move on, stop procrastinating.

Another matter that I wish to write it down in this blog too, I received a email that provide us with all this information about PhD programme in Vienna. It is exciting, challenging and good prospect I suppose. I wish to get in. I have to work extra harder now. 

To be continued. Cheers.      

Tired and streesed

I am thinking about the coursework, thinking about how much money I spent and I am going to spend to finish this tough course. It is so stressful and make me pretty down. Going through the website to find career prospect for my field is not really helpful too. I think I need a good night sleep to pump in some positive thinking. Everything is for your better future! Just stay strong and fight through every single day. After one tough year, everything will fall into the right place. (I HOPE)

Good night.     

Second chance

I went to an "indoor bbq" this evening, it was a welcome event organized by a local community church. It was good, everyone in there are very friendly and nice. We talked and laughed; it is kind of heartwarming especially when you are in a four-season country with cold weather now.

This friend of mine, PC, I met her in a theatre performance two weeks ago. She invited me to this bbq event. She is also a Christian and she shared with me some of her thought about Christianity. I am kind of a freethinker person; I grew up in a family with my mum and dad both has different religion. My parent adores and love and respect each other and we kids can always go to both temples and churches. One thing my parent have we kids know is that all religion teach and guide us to do good things and have kind heart. Nowadays the problem is some of the extremist interprets the holy text to the wrong direction, it is really up to how a person interpret the knowledge in front of him/her.

I didn’t really learnt about Buddhism or Christianity back at home. There was a chance for me to get to know more about Christianity in my first year undergrad, but I was too nervous back then. Imagine everyone is speaking fluent English and they discuss about lines in the Bible and they sing and dance (I am a very nerd kind of person, wearing a spec, not confident, did not have sweet next door gal look). I dropped out in second session. Now, here comes second chance, this local community church has service on every Sunday morning. They invited me to come if I am interested.

Well, I think I will go. You know why? It is because I am curious about all this philosophy and knowledge behind the religion. Have you watched a movie call Life of Pi? The main character Pi wanted to understand god and religion, I supposed and he practiced all this different religions. Well, I am not saying I will practice many different religions, but I will give it a try into learning the knowledge about it.

To be continued tomorrow. Cheers.

 

Back to Uni

It surely has been sometimes since I last written in this blog. Just a tiny update over here, I am now in Manchester pursuing my postgraduate study. Up until this morning, I did not think of writing again, either through blog or other writing channel. However, one of my lecturers suggested to us that if you want to improve your writing skill, you better spend fair amount of time writing everyday. She gave us some evidence with number and I figured that is no reason not to take her advice. So here I am, not sure how long I will keep my "promise" but I will do my best. 

3 years undergrad in Perth, Australia, 3 years working in Malaysia and now back to study again. To be honest, I am pretty stress since I got the offer letter from the Uni or hold on a second, thinking back now, I was also fairly stressed when I did all my application to uni and went through an interview session with my current course director. So what am I doing here? Stressing all the way. Leaving behind my beloved family and close friends. Well, there are indeed several good reasons that made me have this huge courage and also able to stand the stress I am facing now. I am not going too much detail about the reasons now, may be in the future. 

What stress I am having now? It is still the good old problem, my communication skill with local people. I had this problem back in my study in Australia. I was too afraid to speak to any Caucasian in Uni and most of the time I just kept very quiet in the class. I still have this problem now, and it is a very stressful thing, especially when we students are socializing, when people are talking about their casual story, I LISTEN absolutely carefully all the time but still 50% of the time I couldn’t catch what they are talking about. And I just stand there and smile. Not able to fully understand the conversation, I seldom contribute in the conversation too, if there is one. Well, for the moment, I will just stay strong, do not give up, believe that I am learning everyday and the situation will improve everyday. In fact, I am trying to have all my thinking in English, all my hidden conversation in the brain in English. I wonder when I will start dreaming in English. I really miss Mandarin, Hokkien and Cantonese too. If only English is my first language like Mandarin is, my life will be a lot easier. 

I will end here now, to be continued tomorrow. Cheers.

Mazzy memories

Almost 5 years since the winter of 2007 in Perth. There we met, not so close in the beginning, gradually we moved along well. As course mate, we always give support to each other. Faced the mountain height assignments and awful exams together. Then came summer of 2009, we became really close friends and we created the Mazzy. Lot of parties, outing and trips afterwards.

Time pass, things change. Nothing can stay as hot as sun as always. Our friendship cools down a bit and even more, complication and misunderstanding happen. Well, we handled it without much argument. Had a more than usual quiet period. Then, from time to time, we still hang out and quietly supported to each other.

Here came 2010, last year in Uni, few big things happen, at least for me, felt like too many problems every day, felt sad all the time. We handled and be responsible to our own problems. We moved on to our own life. We still give support and encouragement, the support although did become a bit less cheerful but it turned out to be really WARM and touch.

Eventually, we finished our bachelor degree and move on into next stage. Work. Now, we are separated in three different countries. Doesn't always keep in contact but doesn't loose each other completely also. Let ~ ~ take a glass of water and cheers for our friendship :) Long lasted friendship is like water, quite plain but important. ^.^ Ok enough writing, let photos speak now.

2008, our first trip to Margaret River and Albany (downsouth trip)

Together with three kind and handsome gentlemen :)

in the photo, we were eating ice cream

2009, our trip to Melbourne. Omg, I jus realised we were eating ice cream again. ha

and again, we were lucky to have three kind and handsome gentlemen travelled with us

2010, time to say good bye and all the best to everyone.

Miss~~!!

Well well well, 天下没有不散的宴席

me make a wish here k

hope that in future, we manage to meet up at least one time in a year

Until then, let us always have a contented life :)