在微博看到喜欢的句子

在微博看到喜欢的句子，所以都是抄的哦

总会有那么个人代替我在你心里的位置。

年少时不能遇到太惊艳的人。

当斧头来到树林里的时候，好多树都说，至少它的把手是我们自己人。

我宁愿每天累到倒床就睡也不愿一生碌碌无为还安慰自己平凡可贵。

愿你此生 ，喝酒喝到微醺 ，爱人爱到刚好。

这城市那么拥挤，却没有不期而遇的你。

喜欢的时候啊，心中有光，眼底有花，出口成颂，下笔成诗。可热情总有尽，心中的光热，眼底的花色，笔尖的风景有一天也会为下一个人盛开。

远距离的欣赏 近距离的迷惘。

难相处

我突然觉得我不是一个那么好相处的人。我不喜欢身边的人的时候，我的脸就是一副黑，就算我再怎么应该在那环境拥有高情商。

话说我同办公室的一名女孩，她因为工作多而心生埋怨。我之前与她算同事感情相敬如宾吧，她心生埋怨，我充其量安慰安慰就算尽本份了吧。但我因为不太能理解她所谓的委屈，亚洲人吃惯工作上的苦，你懂的。所以她没完没了的埋怨，我之后就置之不理。然后呢，我收到上级的，算建议吧，说如果她需要帮忙，我应该伸出援手。她的确后来在我面前扮到好像力不重心了，而我继续保持我的沉默，就是不去主动问她，需要帮忙吗。最后的最后，她拉下脸，要我帮忙。人家开口了，我总不能说不，我是勤勤奋奋的做了，但你如在场，你绝对可以感受到那恐怖的气压。我也突然发现，原来我有冷暴力的倾向。

你说，其实终究需要帮的，如果我当初和蔼可亲的去帮她，事后她肯定掏心掏肺的感激。你明白吗，现在是她拉下脸了，然后我还给予冷暴力，你看着都觉得我难相处吧，还很自私。

事件二，我和我屋友，性格真的和不来。和不来，我狮子的性格是不会费心迎和的。一开始相处见面我最多微笑，然后就一副沉默寡言的脸。换言之，又再施冷暴力啊。最后因为气氛越来越紧张，我就偶尔装得亲善些，聊天来个蜻蜓点水。我很假，心好累。有时候有摩擦，心理不爽，但不可以撕破脸，脸上就微微笑，嘴巴说无所谓，只看哪天我把自己给逼疯。

我刚才就是有那么一刻想着，其实人都需要有个伴，空荡荡的房子，如果只有我一个人住，我迟早会患上精神病的。但，我知道我的潜在性格，我有些没理由的执着，如果我看不惯一样小事，我不喜欢了，我很难可以妥协，然后去释怀想开。所以我在想，找个伴，得需要找个多像我自己的啊。心累啊

其实就是自己想开点，不就好了吗。

Dusted

Alert: Only start to read if you're really bored.

It's mazzy-3 that is writing now, I'm in Ireland at the moment and sitting in the university office preparing for tomorrow exam. While I'm scratching my head for my Biostat exam tomorrow, someone and something came bothering me.

Growing older makes me less patient. Looking at the "email/messenger", I just want to shout, "I hate stupid people!!!"
Sorry, I know I'm not the brightest, and sometimes can be as stupid as no one else can beat too, but I have just tolerate this person for too long.

Anyway, while my emotion fluctuate, I can't concentrate on reading, I want to shout but I obviously can't, am in an office with few other mature colleagues. I've decided to come up to my beloved and pretty dusted blog. The moment I want to sign in, I realized I've forgotten the password!! Just at the moment where my emotion is at the peak!! Irritating you know.

So then I returned to my study, before that I send an message to Mazzy-1 asking for help with the password haha, well it is very late for her now over at the other side of the world. While studying, suddenly my brain 'ding', here it comes, I might be remember back the password!

In the end, I tried for a few times, and congratulation (to myself)!! I got it through. I then able to write this pretty "meaningless" entry. Haha.

I'm feeling ok now :D you know why, cause I realize I will be able to drag some of "you" that read through this entry :P hahaha (evilly)          

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這篇其實是很久以前，我在 facebook 朋友的 link 里读到的，有po過在這個blog，然後有一段時間我把它拿下來，冷藏了。如今讀回，好像還是很不錯。再搬回來和大家分享~~

不像讀書考試一樣，對於一個人的追求
並不是你付出的越多，得到的回報就會越大　
如果把你的給予當橫軸，別人的回應當縱軸畫成曲線
你會發現邊際遞減率在一個定值之後以非常不可思議的速度上升
為什麼，我每天打電話對他噓寒問暖，得到的只是冷漠的回應？
為什麼，在一群朋友出去玩的時候，他總是對我特別疏遠？
為什麼，即使我竭盡所能的對他好，卻仍無法在他心中擁有一丁點應得的地位？

我說：「太在乎，就什麼也得不到」
當你太在乎一個人的時候，你的心裡能裝的下的東西就變少了
滿腦子想的都是他，無時無刻都在想能為他做些什麼
於是，你喪失了自我，成為一個為別人而活的人。
你不再有自己的生活，不再有和對方不一樣的地方
每說一句話，你都小心翼翼，期待能夠有好的回應
每做一件事，你都考慮再三，希望他能夠被你感動
然後你會發現，聊天的話題好像變少了，相處不在像從前當朋友般的開心自在
他隨口說出的一句話，網誌上的一篇心情，可以牽動你全身的神經，有時讓你開心不已，

但大部分的時候卻是讓你魂不守舍一整天。
隨之而來的，是他開始感受到壓力
生命是一種很容易適應變化的東西
如同把雙腳泡在熱水中，不一會兒就從有點燙變成舒適的溫暖
一開始你對他好，感覺是很鮮明，很強烈的會很開心，會很感激
但如果頻率太高，強度太大就好像坐在按摩椅上太久一般
舒服的感覺不見了，
取而代之的是想要好好靜一下的需要。

如果這時還繼續強求下去
最後的結局就是發卡甚至被討厭。
"欲擒故縱才是最高明的技巧"
大概大家聽到耳朵都爛了吧。
你知道，我知道，可是就是做不到。
沒有辦法不對他好。
當我們越是在乎一個人的時候，越難拿捏自己的分寸
不是對他好到無以復加，就是賭氣強迫自己疏離耍自閉。
所以，最簡單的方法，就是不去在意。

對自己好一點，努力追尋自己的理想
不斷的充實自己，為自己的將來做準備
功課不夠好嗎？去圖書館多K一些書吧
人長的不夠帥嗎？ 去健身房把自己變成陽光形男吧
嫌自己口才不佳，進對應退不夠圓滑，那麼參加社團磨練一番吧
這些事情，夠你忙的了
然後，把他放在你心中的優先順序的第二位，甚至第三位
會發現，一切都變簡單了
不是說兩個人就一定會有結果
而是你開始可以跳脫這個泥沼，用更客觀精準的眼光
看待彼此之間的關係
不再動不動就心情低落，不再被對方牽著鼻子走。
因為你知道，世界不是由他構成的。
即使失敗了，也還有很多值得去追尋的目標。

然後，珍惜兩個人相處的時光
在一起的時候，可以用盡全部的力氣去對他好，讓他如沐春風
而平常的時候，則是為自己的目標付出百分之百的努力，不為了別人，只為了自己。
很輕鬆的，你不用在煩惱什麼時候該對他好，怎樣增加相處的機會。
順其自然，你絕對會被珍惜，而不會被當作理所當然。

最後
成功了，恭喜，有情人終成眷屬。
失敗了，有點遺憾，也許是不適合，或許是沒緣分。
但無論如何，你都是贏家。
因為你又成長了。

意義

最近我的生活日夜顛倒，部分原因是 因為我現在沒什麼正業（讀書工作）需要完成，我也不是一個會自律的人。不知道是不是這頹廢的生活，把我越推越深，越來越迷惘。

突然好激動，頭腦有十萬個為什麼，還有十萬個想法。

二十六歲，讀到了碩士，走過了不少城市。想知道生活到底是什麼，怎樣才是活對了，要怎樣去達成啊？我有好多好多的東西，卻也覺的無比的空虛害怕。

用著 earphone 聽鋼琴版的 Cloud Atlas，眼淚像珠子般一顆一顆的滴落。我怪荷爾蒙，用科學的角度來解釋，用理性的態度去明白。聰明的你，應該也猜到，這註定會失敗。思緒完全沒有平伏亦沒有得到半點的滿足。

從書裡，從戲裡，從人的交流 ，從音樂中。用歷史，用宗教，用科學去領悟。道理訊息聽著聽著，聽多了，是不是就懂了呢？

唉，我憤世，你能怪我嗎？是我錯了嗎？朋友會提醒你，長輩會提醒你，宗教師也會提醒你，你擁有好多，你知道嗎？看看那些在戰亂國家的孩子，看看那些非洲的孩子，你他ma的，為什麼要我去拿你們認為比我差那一卦人來比較？從另外一個角度看，是不是比我好的人都在慶幸活的比我好啊？

＊＊＊＊＊

稍微平靜了些。

想著，或許有些挫折有些痛楚，是沒有答案的。這些難解的煩惱，說出去分享了，有兩中情況，一個是，朋友滿心想的都是要你好，那厚厚的關心，我再也說不出我不好。另一個是，他沒興趣看你煩惱的樣子，我也不自討無趣了。去年，通過一位對宗教很虔誠的信徒，認識christianity 多一些些。但或許羅馬真的需要很長很長的時間和精力去建，很失望的說，我還是沒從宗教上獲得答案或解放或平靜。怪我吧，都沒什麼慧根呢，個性固執又倔強。

不寫了，此刻凌晨兩點三十一分，在 Manchester, UK 。

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分享網路好句

「任何選擇都有缺陷，沒有什麼決定是兩全齊美的。如果你總是希望樣樣佔全，那麼你永遠也做不出什麼決定。當你最終按照自己的心意，而不是遵循原有的生活習慣，自己選擇了方向與路途時，就不要抱怨，更不要後悔。一個人只有能夠勇敢地承擔起自己的責任，才能在人生道路上留下無悔的足跡。」

「有些人是必須忘記的，有些事就是用來反省的，有些東西是不能不清理的。該放手時就放手，你才可以騰出手來，抓住原本屬於你的快樂和幸福！」

「我們都是常人，人生不如意之事十之八九，不管昨天你是成功還是失敗，都已成為歷史，不能成為最終的決定因素。因此，不要沉溺於過去，把過去的一切都放下，卸下心頭的包袱，才能更好地重新開始新的生活。」

歸零

要歸零
要安靜
要沈默
要平心
要祥和

要專心
要毅力
要加油
要堅持
要勇敢

Selfie

Playing with the photo booth in my laptop :)

4 more months to go for my master course. Add oil Mazzy3 add oil !!

Cheers :)

一席話驚醒夢中人

Thanks Mazzy-1 :D It is like I still felt a bit lost and empty when I woke up this morning, but after reading messages and words from Mazzy-1, I suddenly feel relief 釋懷 and delight.

All the troubles all the worries we have now, probably is only a mini tiny issue. But often we keep thinking about it, enlarge it and eventually it engulf us.

For relationship, everyone know it will be a long long process. Along this long long process, hundred or thousand of problems will inevitably appear. If at this moment, you have some doubtful feeling, you are troubled, you are worried and he/she is not willing to response or face the issue with you, then you couldn't really expect him/her to face a even bigger issue in later of you and his/her life!

And I must say, I need to stop thinking about what is in other person mind. So bad, I would just keep finding excuse(s) for him and it was just plain stupid.

Ok, time to work hard on my study now. My another house mate told me he almost finish with his dissertation now and I haven't started it yet. Oh no.

Cheers! Wish everyone have a peaceful mind and heart. Trust faith, never stop loving people, do good deed and appreciates beautiful things in your life.

Spring in Manchester.
    

Hope

Last year mid December, my friend invited me to a hiking trip again. She told me, "This time, we are going to Hope." "What?" "The name of the hiking place is Hope." "O?!! 天下奇名無奇不有啊。" Well, I must say at least it is a very positive and motivated place name.

And yes, I did go with them and was really enjoyed the time away from the city again. We took a train from Manchester Piccadilly Station and about an hour journey, we reached this little small town (Hope) in british countryside. 

Some of the photos I took (showing down here) and again was very impressed with the beautiful mother nature. 

Even the tree are 光溜溜, the whole picture still looks really nice. 

I can't imagine when it is at the spring or summer time. 

In case anyone interested in this place, the full name is Hope Valley, Derbyshire. I google "Hope and UK" a moment ago and realized there are quite a few places also named Hope.

Towards the end of the hiking trip, I did something very silly. I nearly killed myself with an attractive but also very poisonous "fruit". I picked up a few blood red berry-kind fruits and put in the mouth. I was very lucky indeed because right after I had my first bite, my friend noticed it and immediately asked me to throw out or vomit if I can. Very lucky that I did not swallow it because afterwards, they told me, there is a very poisonous fruit that looks very similar to what I had. How stupid I am, this is kind of like common sense and general knowledge. First, I shouldn't have eaten any food that I have no knowledge at all in a jungle like place. Second, the fruits that especially appeared to be extremely attractive are often poisonous, natural selection, to attract their predator! Well, this incident has taught me a very good lesson and I think it will stay in my mind for a very long time. Looking at this way, probably it is a good thing, at least I am still alive now.

Cheers :)    

Foods and Recipe

I came across a pretty useful article title: "30 Foods You'll Never Have To Buy Again". The link is here: -> http://www.buzzfeed.com/rachelysanders/foods-to-diy-make-instead-of-buy

I really wish to make the home-made Nutella and Marshmallows if only I have got more time and enough kitchen equipment in my poor student kitchen. So my actual intention is to share with my other two wonderful mazzy, so that they can make some and share the real food back with me! And of course to anyone that like to home-make your own food, please share with us your experience and outcome (in words, but I wouldn't mind if you want to share your real food too).

Cheers :)

Studying

I go back to study again after 3 years of working. For 3 years, the jobs I had were mostly routine and needless for tough brain work. And 2 months ago, I chose this topic of COMPLEX diseases for my course project. Suddenly I am thinking, what have I done! Should have chosen the simpler project. My brain just wouldn't cooperate with me very well now.

Regardless I have love-hate issue with this book and topic, I will still smile.

Reason 1: I don't hv potential to act cute, nor hv a pretty face, so I hv to smile often to compensate its.

Reason 2: I must be friend with this topic, or else I can't graduate!

Ok, back to my journal/literature. Another sleepless night. Sigh.