Monday, November 24, 2014

意義

最近我的生活日夜顛倒,部分原因是 因為我現在沒什麼正業(讀書工作)需要完成,我也不是一個會自律的人。不知道是不是這頹廢的生活,把我越推越深,越來越迷惘。

突然好激動,頭腦有十萬個為什麼,還有十萬個想法。

二十六歲,讀到了碩士,走過了不少城市。想知道生活到底是什麼,怎樣才是活對了,要怎樣去達成啊?我有好多好多的東西,卻也覺的無比的空虛害怕。

用著 earphone 聽鋼琴版的 Cloud Atlas,眼淚像珠子般一顆一顆的滴落。我怪荷爾蒙,用科學的角度來解釋,用理性的態度去明白。聰明的你,應該也猜到,這註定會失敗。思緒完全沒有平伏亦沒有得到半點的滿足。

從書裡,從戲裡,從人的交流 ,從音樂中。用歷史,用宗教,用科學去領悟。道理訊息聽著聽著,聽多了,是不是就懂了呢?

唉,我憤世,你能怪我嗎?是我錯了嗎?朋友會提醒你,長輩會提醒你,宗教師也會提醒你,你擁有好多,你知道嗎?看看那些在戰亂國家的孩子,看看那些非洲的孩子,你他ma的,為什麼要我去拿你們認為比我差那一卦人來比較?從另外一個角度看,是不是比我好的人都在慶幸活的比我好啊?

*****

稍微平靜了些。

想著,或許有些挫折有些痛楚,是沒有答案的。這些難解的煩惱,說出去分享了,有兩中情況,一個是,朋友滿心想的都是要你好,那厚厚的關心,我再也說不出我不好。另一個是,他沒興趣看你煩惱的樣子,我也不自討無趣了。去年,通過一位對宗教很虔誠的信徒,認識christianity 多一些些。但或許羅馬真的需要很長很長的時間和精力去建,很失望的說,我還是沒從宗教上獲得答案或解放或平靜。怪我吧,都沒什麼慧根呢,個性固執又倔強。

不寫了,此刻凌晨兩點三十一分,在 Manchester, UK 。

Monday, May 5, 2014

分享

分享網路好句

「任何選擇都有缺陷,沒有什麼決定是兩全齊美的。如果你總是希望樣樣佔全,那麼你永遠也做不出什麼決定。當你最終按照自己的心意,而不是遵循原有的生活習慣,自己選擇了方向與路途時,就不要抱怨,更不要後悔。一個人只有能夠勇敢地承擔起自己的責任,才能在人生道路上留下無悔的足跡。」

「有些人是必須忘記的,有些事就是用來反省的,有些東西是不能不清理的。該放手時就放手,你才可以騰出手來,抓住原本屬於你的快樂和幸福!」

「我們都是常人,人生不如意之事十之八九,不管昨天你是成功還是失敗,都已成為歷史,不能成為最終的決定因素。因此,不要沉溺於過去,把過去的一切都放下,卸下心頭的包袱,才能更好地重新開始新的生活。」

Sunday, May 4, 2014

歸零

要歸零
要安靜
要沈默
要平心
要祥和

要專心
要毅力
要加油
要堅持
要勇敢

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Selfie

Playing with the photo booth in my laptop :)



4 more months to go for my master course. Add oil Mazzy3 add oil !!

Cheers :)

Monday, April 14, 2014

一席話驚醒夢中人

Thanks Mazzy-1 :D It is like I still felt a bit lost and empty when I woke up this morning, but after reading messages and words from Mazzy-1, I suddenly feel relief 釋懷 and delight.

All the troubles all the worries we have now, probably is only a mini tiny issue. But often we keep thinking about it, enlarge it and eventually it engulf us.

For relationship, everyone know it will be a long long process. Along this long long process, hundred or thousand of problems will inevitably appear. If at this moment, you have some doubtful feeling, you are troubled, you are worried and he/she is not willing to response or face the issue with you, then you couldn't really expect him/her to face a even bigger issue in later of you and his/her life!

And I must say, I need to stop thinking about what is in other person mind. So bad, I would just keep finding excuse(s) for him and it was just plain stupid.

Ok, time to work hard on my study now. My another house mate told me he almost finish with his dissertation now and I haven't started it yet. Oh no.

Cheers! Wish everyone have a peaceful mind and heart. Trust faith, never stop loving people, do good deed and appreciates beautiful things in your life.

Spring in Manchester.
    

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Hope

Last year mid December, my friend invited me to a hiking trip again. She told me, "This time, we are going to Hope." "What?" "The name of the hiking place is Hope." "O?!! 天下奇名無奇不有啊。" Well, I must say at least it is a very positive and motivated place name.

And yes, I did go with them and was really enjoyed the time away from the city again. We took a train from Manchester Piccadilly Station and about an hour journey, we reached this little small town (Hope) in british countryside. 

Some of the photos I took (showing down here) and again was very impressed with the beautiful mother nature. 


Even the tree are 光溜溜, the whole picture still looks really nice. 
I can't imagine when it is at the spring or summer time. 


In case anyone interested in this place, the full name is Hope Valley, Derbyshire. I google "Hope and UK" a moment ago and realized there are quite a few places also named Hope.

Towards the end of the hiking trip, I did something very silly. I nearly killed myself with an attractive but also very poisonous "fruit". I picked up a few blood red berry-kind fruits and put in the mouth. I was very lucky indeed because right after I had my first bite, my friend noticed it and immediately asked me to throw out or vomit if I can. Very lucky that I did not swallow it because afterwards, they told me, there is a very poisonous fruit that looks very similar to what I had. How stupid I am, this is kind of like common sense and general knowledge. First, I shouldn't have eaten any food that I have no knowledge at all in a jungle like place. Second, the fruits that especially appeared to be extremely attractive are often poisonous, natural selection, to attract their predator! Well, this incident has taught me a very good lesson and I think it will stay in my mind for a very long time. Looking at this way, probably it is a good thing, at least I am still alive now.

Cheers :)    

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Foods and Recipe

I came across a pretty useful article title: "30 Foods You'll Never Have To Buy Again". The link is here: -> http://www.buzzfeed.com/rachelysanders/foods-to-diy-make-instead-of-buy

I really wish to make the home-made Nutella and Marshmallows if only I have got more time and enough kitchen equipment in my poor student kitchen. So my actual intention is to share with my other two wonderful mazzy, so that they can make some and share the real food back with me! And of course to anyone that like to home-make your own food, please share with us your experience and outcome (in words, but I wouldn't mind if you want to share your real food too).

Cheers :)